Adventures for children.

I've got an interview at the playboy channel.

OMG!!!!

I've had a productive day...

I completed we love katamari, and GOT AN INTERVIEW! my first industry job interview! It's for admin work for Digital Deluxe in Soho. Wish me luck!

packed. moved. now sleep.

I got a 2.1!

oh yeah!

Last night I dreamt about a hippo. It was wonderous.

It was in a pool, and was gathering quite a crowd of people. It kept being huge and yawning alot. The crowd of people all fell in, but all managed to get out OK. I went over and asked the hippo what was going on and, in an irish accent, it said 'that's the luck of the irish!' and swam off with 2 monkeys holding onto it's back. o.O

I am sure there was more but it's all faded now :(

All my old diaries from when I was 17 have gone!

Damm you, yahoo! Damm you, geocities, for being bought by yahoo!

All the emo-moaning, all gone! I should've backed up! Why didn't I? WHY??

:(

Hang-over city.

Population : me.

In other news - checking my email today, I had 6 emails in my hotmail, 6 emails in my gmail, and 6 emails in my gmail junk.
666! eeeeevil brewing.

( sunday )

Hello!

I've been in Birmingham these last few days. WOO!

I got the coach from Victoria friday afternoon. While on the coach a lady from student services called me, I was thinking 'oh shit they made a mistake and want that money back o shit!', but actually they'd looked at my application again and awarded me with an extra 82 quid. Handy! Being broke constantly pays off on occasion.
Got home to be given an brand new Canon Ixus 30! I'm using it as a notebook, it's so small I can fit it in a pocket. Cuteness. Also we drove past my mom and dad's new house (they're moving in a couple of months, you know how long these things take to organise!) which is a really nice semi-detached with huge garden, 4 bedrooms, conservatory, the lot. Swish!

That night I met up with my oldest friend (13 years!) Emma. We had a quick drink to get change for the bus in Walsall (there were the dodgiest under-age chavs in the wetherspoon toilet, seriously all they were missing was a big dog on a rope and maybe some crack and the stereotype would have been complete!), jumped on the ol' 51 and went into town. Went to coster mongers, cus I remember it being kinda cool. And it's round the corner from the academy. Well, we got somewhere to sit atleast, but it wasn't that cool anymore... there was sick on the toilet floor. And I got ID'd outside... YEY! We went to the academy to meet Jo R, and I got ID's AGAIN outside. I showed them my SIAD ID and they were all 'I could make this at home, luv'. I showed them all my credit cards and they finally believed that I was over 18. I AM 23 FFS.
We got in to find Jo R etc wanted to leave already. so that was worth the entry fee and the journey... they left, Emma and I got fed up and left too. Was home before midnight! Atleast me and Ems got to chat and catch up, that was the important thing.

I woke up with a minor hangover on saturday and decided to go have a wander round the shops in Walsall. I bought a little case for my little camera, but nothing else as Walsall actually sucks, I'd forgotten. I got home and looked at my outfit for the night and i realised to my horror that i'd left the top I was gonna wear under my corset at gav's. Oh No! so my mommy took me of to matalan so i could buy a cheap throw-away black strappy, I didn't think that it would be that low cut... yeah. i had shelf boobs. corsets do that to us big girls.

I got ready and Joel picked me up to go to ROCK CITY!!!! Woo! We got there kinda early and chilled out in a dark corner. every time i went to the bar or loos all the guys stared at my boobs. i am not being big-headed or anything, i do have big boobs and for the first time they were really out there. i got a lot of male attention that night.. i did that to make myself feel better about myself? certain occurances have been happening recently that have left me feeling like shit. to my surprise, undesired staring, although flattering, isn't all it's cracked up to be. the guys who would look, poke their friends so they'd look, and the nod, was kinda cool tho i guess. and i did get the DJ to play Lordi when they won, he actually left the room to go ask the other djs if they had the CD. oh yeah!

on the way home joel drove through cannock chase - i saw like 20 deer and about a hundred bunnies. i indend to go back late at night again armed with my camera. rolled in home at around 5. good times.

today my mommy took me to IKEA where there is a sale. I bought fun things like placemats and an icecream scoop. been just relaxing all day with my hangover. I am on the guest list to see the yeah yeah yeahs at the academy but couldn't be bothered at the end of the day.

back to london on tuesday, i'm going shopping with emma on the morrow. dunno what i'm doing after that. i know i am moving on the 12th, and i know i have a ton of stuff i need to sort out before then, but scheduling that with gav now working nights on occasion is SO MUCH FUN.

and i need to find a job too. oh lordi!

I ran out of deoderant, so I used Gav's this morning. Now everytime I reach up I expect a hug because that's what I smell when he hugs me. How lonely!

Also I just registered my own domain - the inventive helenwalters.co.uk!

It'll take a couple of days to appear, but feel free to check back and let me know what you think? Advice etc. is always apppreciated.

So.

I've finished all my work.

.. I feel weird.

I planned on having a really self-indulgent day today involving hair-dye, pringles, and sex and the city. But I feel like I should be doing something consrtuctive? Darn habits.

You know? I think LJ has become my drinking issues / self abuse / other distracting activities.

It's turned into what I resort to at times of great emotional stress.

Huh.

Fitting, really.

I started out on the wrong foot
Now I'm not myself
I am Jekyll, I am Hyde
Found this place to hide
Come seek me
Oh, so up and down
So back and forth
So insecure
Can't get this taste out of my mouth
Swallow it down, pretend

Hold it, hold it all in
Let it build up
Build a bomb
And blow it, blow it away
Clear it all out
Just end it

I'm just a normal person
Without those problems
When did it change?
Admissions so embarrassing
I'm on the verge of tears again

Hold it, hold it all in
I'll let it build up
Build a bomb
And blow it, blow it away
Clear it all out
Just end it

Oh look I took the Band-Aid off
Did I take it off too soon?
Hysterical confession
My big courageous move

Don't gasp at the predictable
A comforting lie can't last
Preordained checklist of this awkward love
It's so sad

Hold it, hold it all in
I'll let it build up
Oh, build a bomb
Then blow it, blow it away
Clear it all out
Just end it
Sort it, sort it out
Just give it back
No thank you
And toss it, toss it away
Eliminate
Just give up

I can't decide
This tug of war
I'm feeling weak

Along the way
I lost my faith

And as you were, you'll be again
To mold like clay, to break like dirt
To tear me uo in your sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me

I just had to link to this article.

Tentacle porn will soon be a reality we can all enjoy! Thank you, DARPA!

No, I'm not avoiding work. Why would you say that?

Emily gave me a bowl of poop earlier. I felt privileged.

I handed in my practical work module. I feel weird. I have 1 more module to hand in a week today and then I am done. It's so odd. Seriously.

In other news Our internet's being really weird - I can't get to hotmail or sign into messenger or get to msn. I'm just gonna go ahaead and repeat what I said in tech support to see if anyone reading this has any ideas.

OK! Here's the problem.

My housemates and I are all connected to a wireless router to access the internet. Yesterday for some unknown reason we couldn't get online, we were all connected fine and the 'internet' light was on. For a few hours we couldn't connect, I reset the router to the default factory settings, typed in all our login details again and then we could connect again.

However, we cannot access Hotmail, all but one of us can't sing onto MSN messenger, and I don't seem to be able to download things from download.com. I read that changing the MTU size often fixes this problem but that did nothing.

Anyone have any ideas?

Ha heh. I've reached the 6th level of MySpace. Oh yeah.

My delirium doll arrived today!

Here she is on her mighty steed.



And her fish? Can be attached to either hand. We're rocking the cool party here!